one after another, my beloved leaves me. i accept everything U give me. and i accept everything U take from me. i hope that my ignorance of my things may not anger U or make U angry. as i only think that all the things that i have and once had is Yours and it's even Yours to take it whenever and wherever U want. it's not my right to question your rationale as i am nothing more than a slave in your world. i hope to be like those sahabah that pushed the world with both of their palms. O Allah, guide my into Your way and please never let me go astray. I'm asking for forgiveness as I am. yes, Yours.